A Breath of Fresh Air!

Hello dear readers. Welcome to my blog. 

It's been sometime since I did a catch up with my instincts to pen my thoughts down (virtually)! :)

To be honest, I have been keeping very busy, juggling between studies, work, family and social life, all at once, each at the expense of another. 

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As a young adult who has been yearning to do zillion things since time immemorial, the idea of being this engrossed day-in and day-out seemed to be quite fanciful. I finally am doing multiple things in a day which makes me look forward to each morning. I have a routine which is really engaging. Frankly, I think I have been my most productive version in the last few months, than I ever was. And this surely makes me overjoyed.

However, as all coins have two sides to them, so does this. Five months back, I was in for a journey, I knew little about, but was very excited to get in and know more of. Clearly, there have been fair share of bumpy rides in the middle of it all, emotionally as well as physically. What's more, I have lost out on my interest to make new friends or maintain the old ones as I have time for none. It is saddening on some days because as a person, I have always been warm and friendly, who loves to be around people and enjoy the merry, but maybe not anymore!

With each passing day, I kind of become more invested towards finding myself a peaceful, little world, that is filled with positivism and love. I am willing to let go of anything or anyone, however dear those/they have been to me for a long time, if, the cost of keeping it has to be paid with my peace of mind. A lot of people, over the years, have let me down. There have been illusions which were brutally broken. And now, more than ever, i want to rid myself of any impact they might have on me.

As a result, this incessantly intriguing part of my life is probably bringing me to terms with my real priorities. I have begun to acknowledge that as an individual, irrespective of what image people have of me, I have every right to choose what I really want to do with my life. I can choose to be a sweetheart to people on some days whereas choose to be inherently focused and self-centered on other days. In any case, it has to be me and my well-being that I should primarily be responsible for, before anything else. I can only give love, when I nurture it for myself first.

For the longest time, I have had this misconception that I will be acting in a blatantly selfish way if I care any less about everything. But, after all this introspection and mind-boggling times in past, I have understood that it is not really as complicated as it seemed to me. Rather, it is liberating to shed off the burden to please everyone which I did not voluntarily opt for in the first place. 

I am perpetually evolving into an individual, who is getting enriched with varied experiences with time. I am profoundly grateful for the self-dependence that I am slowly but surely building up for myself. And I vow to become a better version of myself, outgrowing my inhibitions, as I move forward in this journey. After all, it is indeed a pleasure to take a breath of fresh air!

Here, I would also like to mention one of my favorite quotes in the recent times -

"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain." - Dolly Parton.